This & That

Well today is Monday and I promised myself I'd write a blog post every Monday. Over the last couple of weeks I've had great ideas, in my humble opinion, multiple times and told myself to wait till Monday to write them down. 

I'll tell you right now that was a mistake. First, I can't remember what I was thinking. Second, why did I hold myself back? I got so caught up in the rules I set for myself I missed some golden opportunities to share my thoughts with you. Scheduling work is a good thing. I just need to remember it's a guideline I set for myself to be more productive in business and to have a work life balance. It is not a crutch or something to hide behind. 

I'm not sure if it's my beautiful, creative, dyslexic brain or what but I do have a hard time sticking to self imposed deadlines. If it's something for someone else you can count on me. I should stop before this turns into something else. 

I think for me, having a more weekly/monthly goals may work out better for me. I'll try it out and let you know.

Slow living came and went once I was back in my everyday. It fascinates me how quickly we jump back into our old routines. It's hard for me to find that balance of making money, setting goals and checking off my achievements. 

I understand the concept of being present and slow living, really I do. I'm just finding it hard to keep that as my mindset all day every day. I guess I have improved as I'm noticing often that I'm not being present. 

It's a start I know. Just like everything else in my life I want to be perfect at everything I try the first time. Unrealistic I know but a girl can dream. Yes, I'm chuckling at myself right now. They say it's good to have goals though I'm pretty sure this isn't what they meant. (whoever they are)

For now I will do my best to stay in the moment and bring myself back to the present when I start to wander.

Do you ever find yourself knowing what a word means yet unable to describe it when asked? Ashram was my word this week. I know what it means to me ...

My birthday is this coming week and I'd almost forgotten. Thank you bestie for reminding me. The thing is I love my birthday. I usually celebrate the entire month of February. The last couple of years I haven't felt much like celebrating. I have no idea way, I'm just unmoved by it. 

I have always dreamed of getting away on a retreat(silent) but never made it happen until now. My birthday present to myself is to get away for a couple of days not far from Dallas with one of my dearest friends. I don't have an agenda other than to be mindful. I get so caught up in achieving daily goals that I'm not always present. 

I have no idea how this will go but I'm happy to try something new and push my comfort zone. I'll let you know how it turns out.

I have decided that I would start blogging again and I'd post every Monday.  Today that idea seems rather ambitious. I have a blog so why not use it? I could have wimped out and just post info about my classes but that's a horrible precedence to start.

'm using this blog to write down all my thoughts, feelings and ideas so I have it all in one place and I get it out of my head. I thought about sitting it to private so only I could see it , but I realized that if somebody stumbles across these pages they may not feel so alone, so I made it public.

Today I'm not sure what's in my head. So many contrasting thoughts and ideas, it is frustrating. There is not much I know about the world around me at the moment. I do know its a beautiful day today. The sun is shining with a bit of a breeze and it sounds like the wind is singing to me. It's not a song I've heard before though I know message. Rejoice in the beauty around you. That's what I intend on doing. Tomorrow is another day.

I’M BACK!!! Looking at the bright side of this ‘tragedy” has spurred me onto a healthy lifestyle.

It took me awhile to understand the Hawaiian phrase “Living Aloha” and an even longer time to live it. This quote is the best definition I’ve heard...

My answer is some days I believe I can change the world. Right now that's enough for me.

I’m was listening to “The Spiritual Artist” podcast the other day. In episode 17 Chris Miller was interviewing Artist Jackie Fuch and she was speaking directly to me.

Right at about the 22 minute mark is says…..
When an artist says, “Oh, I’m struggling”, that’s not abundance, that’s lack. We always have a choice. Am I living in lack or am I living in abundance?

Am I a fountain in the world or am I a drain?

Wow, just wow.

She goes on talking about manifestation and how quickly what she puts out there comes to her. I was just wondering what my next blog post was going to be about when I started listening to this podcast. TaDa!

I stumbled across this reel on Instagram when I was avoiding work. It’s so powerful!
I have mixed feelings about it, not that I don’t agree with it, because I do. Knowing it all comes down to me is scary. Showing up for others is a cakewalk for me but showing up for myself is a struggle at best some days. That’s why when these beautiful, friendly reminders come knocking on my door, or rather in my Instagram feed, I pay attention and am grateful. Here is what Mel Robbins said.

In my travels I’d seen stacked rocks. I’ve been told it was for other travelers to help them safely find their way. Trail markers if you will. Though at the time I never thought much of it as an art form. Well, not until my friend Laurence started posting about it did I ever think of stacking rocks as anything more.

I’m 95% Pollyanna and I’m “glad” (see what I did there) to see the bright side of things. It just makes me feel good. I’ve was a negative Nelly in my early 20’s and I decided that’s not how I want to live my life so like my friend Karen says, “I choose to be happy.” It is a choice and I’m all the better for it.